I can remember when I left
home at 19 and one day I went to the shop and bought myself a bottle of wine. I remember sitting down and
having a glass, being all warm and fuzzy and relaxed and thinking it was lovely (and how grown up I
was!). I can't be sure what happened to the rest of the bottle but I do know that no way on this
earth wouldI have drunk the rest of it
17 years later I decided that it was time to re-gain that sort of self-control. Gone was the 'I'll just have a
glass' and I had become more of a 'tonight, I'm going to have a bottle' sort of person. Occasionally I would
leave a glass (I'm basing this on 3 large glasses per bottle), but usually, I would drink the whole
lot. That used to be just a Friday OR Saturday, then became Friday AND Saturday then Sunday got involved
too and then the other weekdays starting to join in! Before I knew it I was getting through around 4 or 5
bottles of wine a week.
Not to mention the £80 - £100 per month it cost to fund, drinking on an evening was clouding my judgement,
making me think that somehow 3 or 4 bags of crisps wouldn't really matter 'this once', which of course I would
never do with a clear head or in the middle of the day!
I had various associations such as: Once the kids are in bed I will open a nice bottle of wine, tomorrow when
husband is away, I will have control of the TV and I'll have a bottle of wine, Oooh, it's Friday, I'll have a
bottle of wine, I've had a bad day, I'll have a bottle…
I've had a good day…and so on.
Seeing Julie was an obvious decision to make as she had successfully stopped me smoking in 2007 so I knew that
I really wanted to stop my drinking habit and break all these silly associations, and she would be able to help
me do it, just like she had helped me do with cigarettes 5 years ago.
It is 2 weeks today since I saw her, it was a Friday and I went home and had hot water with some lovely
expensive Manuka honey in it, just because although I would never have spent that amount of money on the honey,
it was going to last and last was actually cheaper than one bottle of wine anyway! I didn’t think about having
a drink of alcohol then until the following Friday when I had one small glass of wine, which I didn't
actually enjoy that much and the day after I had an even smaller one, which was 'ok'.
It is liberating. I'm going to be significantly better off. I sleep like a log. I'm not thirsty all
the time. I'm not consuming 640 calories in wine per night anymore. (Not to mention the crisps!). I
look younger already as my skin isn't so dehydrated. I'm not as tired in the daytime and therefore less grumpy!
I know I will keep it up because it feels so good to have basically changed my habits. It seems obvious
looking back on it. I wish I'd done it sooner!